Sick and tired.

Numbers. Subscribers. Likes. Page views. Bounce rate. Followers.

When I read at Vanita’s blog, After Bedtime Blog about the possibility of Feedburner going away in October (still just a rumor), my heart sank.

Do I really need this right now? Worrying about losing subscribers the way I did when Google Friend Connect was discontinued for WordPress? Having to start from scratch and go through the “Please follow me via RSS! Please subscribe via email!” thing again?

And what about when I had to start over with Facebook when I changed the blog name/ domain? Starting from zero and begging reminding people to please like my new page?

Sick and tired.

Don’t get me wrong, I WANT people to subscribe/ follow/ like me. Of course I do.

But do the number of subscribers/ page views and so on change the way I blog? The topics I write about? The way I write?

No, no it does not.

This blog is ultimately my gift to my children (as well as my creative outlet). That they can one day read my words and know what they were like as children. That they will come to know their mother as she was. That they know I love them, want so much for them, that I tried my best, even when I failed.

It’s not about the numbers. I refuse to stress over them.

Because it doesn’t matter if one or one thousand read my words.

There are only two people who really matter in all of this. 

Feel free to keep subscribing/ following/ liking though. But I will no longer beg remind anyone to. Please know that I treasure and love my existing readers/ community.  

And of course, Memories Captured will go on – it’s the very essence of why I blog. Next week’s Memories Captured (September 10 – 14) will see one lucky linker win $50 worth of jewelry from Dawn Butler Jewelry – gorgeous, yes?